It Happened

Ok at some point without me noticing I have become my father........My eight year old son was sitting at the breakfast bar the other day pushing the vegetetables on his plate around in a sad and vain attempt to make it look as though he has eaten them....when I gave him the speech! "There are starving kids in Africa that would kill for those vegetables!" "You are going to sit there all night if thats what it takes ...you are going to eat those vegetables......and If you don't finish them tonight you will get them for breakfast.....blah blah blah....." It just came out of my mouth.....i walked into the other room and freaked! then it happened again......My 8 year old son has a play station a tv, a vcr and a dvd player in his room...so many toys that you can see the carpet...and he has the nerve to walk up to me and say "I'm bored" so I made him clean up the yard, while I'm giving him the all I had was a rock and a stick speech.......this is what my father used to do to me....the first time i ever told him i was bored was the day I was introduced to the lawnmower....

I come home at three a.m. from work and trip over my sons' skateboard, so i pick it up and put it on the top shelf of my closet....he asks the next morning if i have seen it and before i can even blink I say..."you want it back take out the garbage!"

Somebody please tell me when I became my father

Does this happen to us all? Next I'll be telling stories about walking to school in the snow barefoot up hill both ways!....lol

Help!


Later......

I'm Convinced

I'm convinced that ALL women are nuts in some capacity.......My daughter can run the emotional gamit in a matter of seconds......but i'm sure this is common for a 14 year old right?.....

Has anyone besides me noticed that there is a trend towards putting teenagers on mood altering drugs? Are kids today different than when I was a teenager? Or when our Parents were teenagers? Grounding and a good smack in the mouth always worked for me so why not for todays kids (I've actually had my daughter threaten to cal CPS if i spanked her....wtf)? Has society become so full of shite and pressures that we are producing more and more neurotic children? I hear more teenage girls talking about suicide than ever before.....Is it something in the water?

anybody else notice?

Why do girls go through this crap so much earlier than boys?

thoughts? before i have a mild heart attack?


Later.......

Ok Why?

Summer is over and the kids are now in their second week of school....since I'm off on Mondays I take them and pick them up.....My son is 8 and in the third grade......Primary school seems not to have changed much aside from the lunch menu...lol.......However my Daughter is 14 and in the eighth grade, and as I sit in the parking lot watching the kids walk by I noticed something disturbing.....the girls look nothing like they did when i was 14.....why is it that 14 year olds today want to be 25 and twenty five year olds want to be 14 again? Is it TV? Fashion magazines? MTV what exactly why do the feel the need to huury up and grow up? why do the want to act and look older than they are?......My daughter walks around the house talking about this guy is hot and that guy is sexy!!!!! Excuse me Hot? Sexy?....she is 14 she wouldn't know hot if it walked up and bit her on the ass! It makes me a nervous and complete wreck....I find myself wanting to kill teenage boys...i actually came to the door one night with my handgun when a boy knocked on it...lol Help! am I the only one that feels this way? I'm sure I'm not

So what to do about it? Take away off of these things? Lock her up until she is 30? Send her to an all girls school? Truth is i don't know the answers I wish i did

I put my foot down from time to time.......she absolutely cannot go out on a real date until she is 16....i have not allowed her to wear make-up until this year and only a little eye liner and lip stick at this point

Overall she is a good kid but i can't be with her every minute of every day...all i can do is hope the things that i have tried to teach and drill into her head have stuck.....

Man my hair is going grey....and I know I'm going to have a cardiac event before she hits 17!

Later......

Another One Has Leaked Out!

somebody has their hand on the faucet today.....


The windows in my mind
Open and close
Letting out the old
Letting in the new
Or is it the other way around
I can’t keep track any more
I have lost myself somewhere
And though I retrace my steps
Again and again
I am nowhere to be found
Or was I ever there to begin with
Words have no meaning
Falling on
ears of stone
And rusted iron
Starting over
Ending
Each seems the same
Close the door
Open the door
It’s all up to you
I got tired of begging
So I learned a new trick
I rolled over and played dead

Just like everyone wanted……..

ok so i'm nuts nothing new.....lol

Later...

Childhood Dreams Comes True

In 1976 my parents gave me a set of World Book Encyclopedias and one day while flipping through the pages I came across a picture of an Emerald Tree Boa (Corallus caninus) i had always been fascinated by snakes which I in part attribute to my fathers healthy fear/hatred of them (He spent time in the jungles of Vietnam) and was awestruck by what i saw. It wasn't until well into my teens that i got my first pet snake... (Thats a whole story unto itself) now jump forward to many years and many snakes later with a family of my own.....even though i really don't like the color green i still find myself drawn to these beautiful animals.....to make a long story short after hearing me talk about it for so long my wonderful and understanding wife Nicole finally gave me the go ahead (I suspect to shut me up) and the support to follow that childhood dream to own these amazing animals....I recently acquired a reverse trio of adult LTC animals and although i realize and understand the difficulty i face it is something i had to do even though i may have my heart broke....wish us (me) luck

those things in the back of your mind that you formulated as a child while daydreaming about being a grown-up are valid...feed them encourage them....nurture them even if they are silly you'll be suprised how good it will be for you and those around you in the long run

in short don't give up or give in always keep a small portion of yourself "A CHILD"

Later.....

First Time

This is my first time using a blog everyone else seems to be doing it and as i spend so much time on various reptile forums i figured it would be easier to write my crap here than in my journal....

I don't really expect anyone to read this shite, it just makes me feel better to capture it someplace and let it out of my head.

I used to consider myself a poet back in the good ol' school daze but it seems lately my muse or whatever that elusive spark was that made me want to write has gone out or is hiding someplace down deep and dark, or maybe since getting married for the third time and having children and a large collection of reptiles to tend to has domesticated me or made me content? who knows? I sure don't but let me give it a try anyway....

I was never much for following various forms or formats i liked the stream of thought stuff that became popular in the 50's and 60's or maybe i'm just lazy?

The dis-illusion gradual
into my veins
seeps
the inky fimament of dream
flooding my
body
warm and sticky
shadows melt
taking shape
misty and vague
abstract
material forms and
ghostly things
perform
an eerie tango
of
frightful secrets
and
incomprehensible whispers
obscure
contemplations of
my favorite nightmare
and the wolves
that run freely
just beyond my rerach
like a hasty hesitation
in the sun
somewhere
in the realm
of bad greeting cards.....

I know odious huh? oh well just my brain passing gas i suppose...lol

ok watching a special on wolverines and have gotten engrossed

Later.....