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So recently i have had this huge upheaval in my life...granted most of it has been by choice, but as a result i am discovering new things about myself....not all of it good....lol. It has started me thinking about my life path and my choices......When i was younger i was very submersed in art and music, but was not encouraged to follow that path....I was told many many times that i would never make a good living being an artist or a musician. So as i aged i abandoned my dreams and followed the path that was expected of me...as the song says: "They send me away to teach me how to be sensible, logical, responsible, practical"....So I went to school, got a job, got married....and as i spent all this time and effort invested in trying to make a life i was told i was supposed to have, i never bothered to ask myself if i was happy? as it turns out i was not...not happy at all. I spent my time working for a company i couldn't stand, and slowly killing what was left of my soul and creative/expressive side, so that i could put food on the table and a roof over the heads of my family. Noble,....indeed we all compromise in life....but what if we didn't what if we refused to give in? I think that requires a strength that few of us ever seem to possess. I was always starting new projects and new hobbies....simply because i was looking for something...anything to pull me out of the hell i had created for myself. I hurt a lot of people along the way, people that i cared about and thought that i loved. As i get closer to 50 i have begun to realize that it is never too late to follow a dream....no matter how stupid or silly some people think it may be....I have also discovered that happiness is a state of mind, and like anything else worth having it takes hard work and devotion to affect change. If your reading this and wondering to yourself....My advice to you is simply do it...no matter what...just DO IT! you might just end up happy!