Life Still Weird...

I want to write her all the time and then i pause....and when i pause for just a moment the urge to write is gone....

We are still at odds....Ashley spends every weekend away from the house.....this is Nikki's solution to the problem....keep us apart we won't fight....

Ashley got a job last Monday at the local Dairy Queen....I am proud of her for following through and actually executing an idea....I'm hoping that a taste of the "real world" will do he a slight bit of good and possibly make her understand how life really works...maybe a few weeks of slinging greasy burgers and fries and dealing with asshole customers will make her realize how important school really is...I doubt it but i'm hoping...

again I am really proud of her for getting a job and sticking with it...

Had fantastic sex wednesday with the wife.....but no life since....she is back to not wanting to hug or kiss me again

Money has been tight around here lately work is just now starting to pick back up...but i did mange to pick up a few CD's for the wife for Valentines' day along with the usual chocolate and sweets.....she says she liked the gift but who knows

She did give me a card on Thursday that actually made me cry...on the front is a yin and yang symbol and the cation reads "To my other Half" you open it up and it reads "Without you I would not be complete." followed by a simple I love you...lately i really began to wonder and or doubt if she did actually love me anymore

Work sucks as usual

I have an add up that says Bass Player seeks band....a few nibbles so far but no bite as of yet....

Tyler and I just got done Jammin "Hand of Doom" and "Blitkrieg Bop" he likes to play but i think he gets bored with the technical side of playing...he also gets frustrated with not being able to play what he wants....but at 9 he does not want to put in the time to learn technique......hopefully that will change as he gets older...

Time for Pizza and a good Lovecraft of REH story i think i'm getting sick.....